July 31, 2000

(idea) by Karrde (2.8 y) Thu Jun 01 2000 at 14:23:55
Happy birthday to me!! This will probally be my last birthday as an unmarried man. Not that I haven't been living the married life for 5 years now, we've just never got arround to getting married. But sometime over the next 12 months we whould get married.

Note to all the other mid 20 somethings. Older women are great partners.

Things I've obtained since my last birthday:

Well the day has finally rolled arround, and it's pretty much SSDD. We're heading out to Gillian's tonight to celebrate. It's and adult arcade leaded with cool shit including an eight player Battletech Simulator . I haven't actually tried them out yet I hope it's actually cool, and doesn't suck ass
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(thing) by JeffMagnus (5.2 y) Mon Jul 31 2000 at 0:03:42

Everything Day Logs
Yesterday | Tomorrow

Everything Snapshot

Time: Mon, 31 Jul 2000 00:03:17 GMT
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(idea) by jeremy f (5.1 y) Mon Jul 31 2000 at 1:19:52
Today was the day of my self-immolation.

I knew I shouldn't have gone. I knew he'd be there. I knew because I, like the fool I am, told her that I would be there. And he was there. Holding her hand, her arm wrapped around his, the smile in her face. I caught her looking at me several times. I know she knows how I feel. I know she once felt the same way. Hell, it's been 5 years now. If I had told her, it may have been me holding her hand, making her smile like that.

But I am such a coward.

And that's why it wasn't me. And why it won't. I'm a coward.

They disappeared shortly after it ended. She didn't stick around to say hello, like she normally does when I'm in town.

I know now she knows. Maybe it's fear, maybe it's gloating. Maybe it's more of a "I had a crush on you for so many years, but you broke my heart, now's my chance to break yours".

Every time I looked at them, something echoed in my mind. A glimmer of hope it was, a light like none other. MLK's voice saying "Free at last, free at last". I know now that I have a crossroad in my life.

One path leads me to a life of happiness, but never see her again.
Another path leads me along with her, but the road will itself will be the cause of unbearable pain.

It's not a decision I want to make.

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(thing) by Eraser_ (4.9 y) Mon Jul 31 2000 at 6:35:23
Today was a good day.

I got my first restful nights sleep in awhile. I went to bed around 2am, and woke up 11am completely refreshed. I have not had a good nights sleep in a few weeks. Always woke up fatigued. Had to mow the lawn and wash the cars. No Big Deal. Went to my friends late birthday party today, late. Was a combined party for 2 of my friends, which was about 2-4 months overdue. But whatever, when you're a teenager no body questions the fact that there is a party.

About 5 of us there most of the time, then a 6th person showed up. The guy had these inflatable swords and shields. My girlfriend and i had a battle to the death, and she won. In one blow might i add, straight across my face a little harder then she meant to. Nice 1" cut above my lip, i laughed my head off, she felt awful. It was fun, i couldn't stop laughing. Oh well. We swam, we talked, we ate pringles. Later we watched The Jackal, god what a stupid movie, but it had big guns, which made it cool :) I got a splitting headache, g/f rubbed my temples and then my back. No more headache for me :)
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(idea) by Noether (3.3 y) Mon Jul 31 2000 at 7:18:16
It's my birthday. My overwhelming feeling is I'm too old for this shit.

dizzy pointed out to me that the chronic fatigue syndrome writetup had turned into a nodeshell (presumably a copyright violation) so I decided to write something there.

Update on the asbestos problem I mentioned on July 30, 2000. We spoke to the council and they say that the flue to our gas water heater (which has to be removed) probably is white asbestos. Our plumber says the flue is in sections and that he can remove it without breaking the absbestos (and releasing the dangerous fibres) and so according to the council that should be fine. It's still a bit worrying though.

Just to be sure we got an asbestos expert to come and look and he confirmed there was nothing to worry about. So feel a bit less anxious about this now.

A friend came over this afternoon. She cares for a guy who has really bad cfs. She's planning to emigrate to New Zealand and live by the sea. Good plan! She brought me some beautiful sunflowers and a wide array of cakes. Woohoo!

Yesterday, Next day log

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(idea) by dizzy (3.2 y) Mon Jul 31 2000 at 8:32:02

Yesterday | Dizzy->Day_Logs() | Tomorrow

9:30 BST

Is that an Inhaler in your pocket, or are you just pleased to see me?

The girl in that canteen kept staring at my crotch - enough to make me very, very paranoid. Have I got an amusing stain down there? No. My Ventolin inhaler is in my pocket - arranged just so, making me look... aroused.

Saw Titan A.E. last night. The plot is obviously aimed at kids, but the art and graphics were amazing - enough to offset the poor plot and cel animation.

11:30 BST

Some web and usability links for your reading pleasure:

  • http://www.alistapart.com/stories/marsvenus/index.html - A list apart compares the usability experts and the design wizards
  • http://www.nathan.com/thoughts/seduction/ - the seductive user interface
  • http://www.lab404.com/dan/ - eye candy from the underground
  • http://www.lemonyellow.com/essays/essay_style.htm - try to template your style as well as your site

13:20 BST

Went for a walk at lunchtime and stopped off at the chemists for my asthma medicine. Proved again that my nick is very well chosen by: walking out of the doctors before remembering to book an appointment, forgetting when the appointment was while still at the booking desk, filling in the prescription incorrectly, forgetting to pay for the prescription, paying then putting the receipt away which meant that I had to take it out again to collect, saying I would be coming back later when I meant I would wait for the medicine and offering money when I collected the prescription when I had already paid.

Dizzy by name...

19:15 BST

Cream Crackered again. Walking 2 and a half miles home when you're an unfit geek is a tiring experience.

Oh babe
I love it when you slide
Stay with me
Slide all the time, don't go
I love the way you smile
Stay with me

Someone complained on #everything that the daylogs are too long - I hope I'm not the target of that comment :(

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(idea) by SmokeyBarnable (5.9 y) Mon Jul 31 2000 at 8:48:28
Wow. Back to everything after a long absence, and so much has changed, and so much has stayed the same. I am also Stoned Again; and, How I Managed It. Though it occurs to me that mentioning this here is tantamount to putting it in stone, with my name in the real world written underneath. That is, not Private.

Just watched Enemy of the State again: I was ten seconds into it before I realized I've seen it before. At the vid store, the cover triggered a mental note:
that's the film I've been meaning to see.
Unfortunately, it was an old mental note that should have been garbage-collected.

The movie was good again a second time. Then again I enjoyed the film "The Patriot" with Mel Gibson the other night: I seem to have the knack lately of overlooking atrocious flaws in plot, script and mindset of movies lately, and enjoying them even when they reek.

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(idea) by break (4.1 y) Mon Jul 31 2000 at 10:14:36
13:17 EET

Riikka (my 11-year-old sister) left for eye surgery this morning. I spoke to my mom at the phone and she said my sis was feeling quite anxious. Well, I don't blame her.. I myself had minor surgery done when I was 12 (nothing serious, not eye related either) and it scared the hell out of me beforehand. But in the end it wasn't such a horrible ordeal at all. Thank science of anesthesia!

Feeling quite tired today. I fell asleep early enough, but slept restlessly and woke up several times during the night. Furthermore, my neck feels as stiff as.. well, something that is very stiff. Thankfully I don't have much important stuff to do at work, so I'll be able to idly node the day away.

The latest 2-part South Park episode kicked ass. A great slap in the face for those who claim SP is nothing but fart-humor for kids. Of course, the subtle stings on organized religion must've gone over the heads of many viewers, but it won't be the first time that has happened.

The people in my current client companies are coming back for their vacations. This means things might get busy here. I'd better enjoy the free time while I can.

23:40 EET

Well, so much for the plan to node all day. A silly project took most of the day, and after work I just spent the evening with Masa playing Soul Calibur, Chu Chu Rocket etc. Better luck tomorrow with the noding business.

Riikka is fine after the surgery. She was feeling quite groggy because of the drugs they had given her, and pretty much went to sleep on arrival. I'm supposed to get up at 8 tomorrow morning to keep her company. I wouldn't mind it at all, but 8 o'clock?! That's sick. So don't be suprised if I'm too tired to node tomorrow.
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(place) by Hermetic (7.2 y) Mon Jul 31 2000 at 12:41:50
My To Do: Updated!
  • email survey distribution code - 30 minutes - finished, didn't publish
  • Calendar navigation code - 2 hours? Hairy, may be longer. - didn't start.
  • Re-work tables/querys for crime stats site - 2 weeks, start today - didn't start
  • order new PC. PIII 667 PC133, 128MB RAM 20GB HDD, Voodoo 5... ! Delegated - didn't get done
  • Java Applet - scrolling text box for PR's drivel on intranet - 1 hour if I ever get around to it. done.
Of course, if I don't stop noding I will never get all this done. Noding and playing with ACID Music.

I got the Caffine Sampler from ThinkGeek.com last Friday. It is really cool. I plan on trying each flavor of drink today, so by the time I am ready to leave my co-workers will be ready for me to leave.

Home:
I didn't get any thing done today. I am such a slacker, and I hate it. I know I need to do things, but I just keep going back to the things I screw around with.

I have forced myself to work before, and I keep thinking I am going to again... Maybe tomorrow...

*sigh*

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(idea) by presto (3.4 y) Mon Jul 31 2000 at 13:07:23
Well, in the morning (about 1105) while waiting for the bus to work, I realized that I had forgot my access card at home so I walked back home, retrieved my access card, watched the bus pass by and decided to take go to work via a bus down town and a commuter train which wouldn't take as long as if I had waited for the next bus.

While walking from the train stop to my office, I realized what a lovely sunny day it was and how nice it would be to have a day off.

Maybe I'll go get a coffee and smoke.

Not too much work since I'll be leaving this job in 2 weeks, and moving to a new job in a new country (again) in September. Have already reserved the boat tickets from Helsinki to Rostock. From there, a couple days leisurely driving. Yipeee! Weather will be much better there.

Node maintainance:
  • Added a link to The Bad Roommate Node to my 'vote sink' on my E2 home page.
  • Updated my writeup showing support for Everything Editor Logs by adding links to more recent Editor logs.
    I've Been Borged! for the very first time. It was terrible but I managed to come out intact.
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    (idea) by noumiso (5.1 y) Mon Jul 31 2000 at 16:39:28
    went to drink with ai, whom i truly loved for the first time, and her boyfriend.
    talked about my second person whom i truly love.
    well, -g. had gone and i left oly about two weeks ago.
    so, it's over.
    i talked about the process and what had happened.
    what she said, what i said, how she touched, how i touched, why i thought it's worth to do it, why i think it didn't work, why i love her and such.
    ai said loving me made her feel guilty. that was exactly what -g. said to me.
    ai recommend me not to hung out with those cheap model-wannabes. she said i should face what i did. think and analize it without being cynical nor being a pimp.
    i know it. i told her i cannot be alone now because it's too hard.
    'that's bull. you deserve it.'
    this is what she said. though i don't want to agree with her, i have to agree with her.
    i loved ai because she was a bad ass bitch. i love -g. because she is the best bad ass bitch.
    i'm drunk now and i'm mumbling shit again. i should stop this 'cause it's almost 2 a.m.
    tomorrow, i need to wake up at six 'cause it's my first day at work.
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    (idea) by ophie (2.4 y) Mon Jul 31 2000 at 16:49:23

    monday morning

    today sucks and i don't quite know why. today i hate most everything and everyone. i slept through my alarm. got to work at 11. coffee. coffee. coffee.

    the man comes back tomorrow morning. i am nervous and anxious.

    more later...

    monday afternoon

    i can't get the nervous feeling to go away. it's just a constant feeling of doom. not just gloom, i mean DOOM. like something catastrophic is about to happen.

    i keep looking in mirrors. looking for something wrong. i can't find anything about my being that anyone would find repugnant.

    i came close to finishing a self-portrait last night.

    monday night

    updated my homenode pic.
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    (idea) by eric+ (6 y) Mon Jul 31 2000 at 17:02:08

    Well, I'm not sick anymore but my neck hurts. I left the window open last night when I went to sleep go I guess when I kicked off my blankets (as I apparently often do) I got a nice cool breeze on my back which was great when the room was hot and stuffy, but not so good when I woke up all sore and stiff. A good, long, hot shower helped a lot. That's my advice for the day: long, hot showers rock.

    Tomorrow I"m supposed to go out to lunch with a lot of former co-workers in Mountain View. Since I'm the only person left here (damned my mindless loyalty!) no doubt I'll be called on to deliver the bulk of the news and gossip. I make it sound like I don't want to do it, but that's not true. No matter how shy I pretend to be (and believe you me, it's very, very shy) I still like being the center of attention. It's always nice to have an audience, I think. Even if it's only an audience of one.

    I really hate the way the cubicles here at work are set up. The computer is kitty-cornered (for you pedantic bastards, cater-cornered) from the entrance so my back is always exposed. I'm not (very) paranoid or anything, but it startles me whenever I'm working and someone sneaks up behind me. I must have been a cowboy in a past life -- "always keep your back to the wall".

    Why has ophie stopped putting headlines in her daily log? I thought that was a great idea.

    Work was mentioned in USA Today. Not a particularly flattering article either. Most distressing, the quote "more layoffs are likely." Not exactly what you want to hear. I'll bet you a buck that there'll be an allstaff email this morning from the CEO saying that the reporter is wrong, he was misquoted, etc.

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    (idea) by posthumous (4.8 y) Mon Jul 31 2000 at 17:22:40

    Long weekend.

    She and I sat down to watch Magnolia on friday night, but her sister's soon to be ex-boyfriend called, in an apparently suicidal state, and she needed to talk him out of it.

    So, after an hour of the movie, spent an hour and a half watching Oprah pimp the new Eddie Murphy movie, while half-heartedly listening to her calm Jon Sr. down.

    I later was criticized for being insensitive, because after about an hour, I was getting slightly annoyed with the fact that I was being ignored for the phone.

    Baaah.

    Saturday went to the city, with her anorexic high school friend and some other people from the summer.

    Sunday had breakfast, then had some much-needed alone time. Saw Gladiator, for the third time. Then, inspired by the movie, played some Bushido Blade.

    So far have been productive at work; a typical monday. The boss is gone for a funeral; I am preparing a presentation. Our servers are breaking left and right, and all I can do is laugh and say, "It's your fault, end user!"

    Hmm... I don't feel much like noding today; perhaps the extended dose of the real world shocked my system?

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    (idea) by Debbie (9.1 mon) Mon Jul 31 2000 at 18:50:15
    As I am sure anyone who has ever spent two consecutive days in New York City can tell you, they don't call NYC "the city that never sleeps" for nothing! In my three and a half days in the city, I got a total of about four and a half hours of sleep. I shit you not!

    Usually when I go away on a trip somewhere I come back and try to write my daylogs as if I had written them at teh end of each day, but I packed so much stuff into each day that I couldn't even begin to remember everything, and forget about having enough time/space! However, I can seperate my weekend into a couple lists:

    Famous People I Shook Hands With
    Famous People I Shared A Hotel With
    Famous People I Took Pictures Of
    Famous People I Met in A Bar
    Famous People's Look-a-likes That Asked Me For A Blowjob
    Places in NYC that I stood in line at for long periods of time but didn't get anywhere

     I would have written the whole weekend's experiences in my daylogs but it just doesn't seem to be the right place. Perhaps the dream logs would be more appropriate:)
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    (idea) by ninar (2.4 y) Mon Jul 31 2000 at 19:06:38
    My daughter cried herself to sleep last night - cried inconsolably for a solid hour.

    When she finally dropped off, we all slept pretty deeply until 5am, when a neighbor's animals started up a ruckus. The baby goat was crying like a human child and all their dogs were barking like mad. Even though I knew what it was, the bleat was still upsetting.

    I didn't see the connection between the two events until I wrote them just now - I guess the goat's wail disturbed me because of what my daughter had been through. We'd just come back from a long, physically difficult trip.

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    (idea) by Genie (3.7 y) Mon Jul 31 2000 at 19:45:49

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KARRDE & NOETHER!!

    Notes from the Weekend

    Hung curtains, read a 360-page book cover to cover, did laundry, cleaned the house, sat in the sun, went out to dinner wearing a tropical print dress (oh yeah - commando style). =D

    Today

    Noded a few things this morning, entered lots of stuff into a database for work, sat at my desk and ate my lunch (yummy nectarines), listened to Phat Blues Music cd, noded more Jimmy Buffett stuff this afternoon.

    Favorite Node Created Today

    God's Own Drunk

    Plans for Tonight

    On the way home from work I pl