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It would be a perfect time for you to walk in almost silently, though I'd catch you in the corner of my eye. For you to put your hands on my shoulders, lean over and kiss me on my forehead. For you to look me in the eyes, taking my focus briefly off this paragraph, and smile. Then turn and go back into the other room, where you were reading a book. For you to just appear in this world for just that moment.
Must say I'm feeling pretty good today. I got mentioned in a node. Yup, The superiority of the alphabet. Rather interesting topic. The really cool thing is that the author of said node is none other that DMan himself. Not only that, but it looks like one of my writeups was the direct precursor to DMan's little patriotic rant. Very cool.
I don't think there are any hard feelings, the idea that a culture needs acronyms in order to advance technologically is absurd. I'm sure DMan understood that it was a joke. What I enjoy is that one of my little nodes sparked such an emotional response from a fellow noder. That's one of the things I most enjoy about Everything. The expression, the feeling. Controversy helps too.
There's a nodeshell too I assumed that masterYoshi was being Ironic. Neat.
Spent most of the day searching for sturdier foundations after a key plank in my platform decided it would be better for all involved to stop lending its support. Said somewhat opposite-of-belated good-byes to a good friend, made arrangements for a surrogate upon their departure. Ennumerated things I was aware of having once enjoyed but having forgotten the experience of (paramount among such wrestling in the grass, falling asleep with people both in person - instead of remaining acutely awake, watching them with one eye for eight hours - and falling asleep on the phone. Felt really bad watching a roommate interact with his girlfriend-of-six-years. Not resentful, not jealous, but something akin to realizing you've spent half your life speaking without using any words containing the letter "e" in them. Being a crazy French writer is cool but lonely, I hear.
I suspect this all describes yesterday but don't particularly care. I will make time jump through my hoops, linear or not.
People have been talking about me when I'm not around. This is good. This gives me grounds for existing again, for living up to expectations as opposed to living down to a state of obscurity or whatever-happened-to-ity.
Tomorrow is a busy day; tomorrow I will get things done; meeting pasta bicycle fixering mail hiking-swimming-laundry. I woke up a roommate with Randy Newman, but damn it, I'm not ashamed.
Sex, death and love all have new companions, slutty little nodes that they are (check past day logs or /dev/null node9 for an inkling at what I'm referring to) to which I can't arbitrarily assign any particular significance in this state of awakeness.
When I wake up it is very very likely that I will possess godly XP, sufficient upon the next refresh (unless you orchestrate now a concerted and systematic effort to keep me down...) to be dubbed E2's first user of Godhead level. What comes after Godhead? (Would Deborah909 have any good suggestions?) I am tempted to treat it like ascention and never come back again, but then how would I fill the big hole in the center of my life ^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H^H ^H^H^H^H^H all this time?
I am not a donut.
This is my 4500th node. Sleep now.
in our last episode... | p_i-logs | and then, all of a sudden...
The weather is depressing me today and yet I can't stop staring out my window. The sky is a pasty white/gray color and it's considerably cooler today than it has been lately. What to do.
more to come later as I do not feel like typing right now.
So this is one of those Tuesdays that feels like a Monday. And I'm at a company that is dying. It's a young company and it's dying quickly. I helped make this place... the only person wandering around these systems longer than me is the President.
This sucks. Too depressed to continue write-up... Should probably move it to a relevant node anyway...
Just another one of those times that makes you wonder why clothes were invented in the first place.
-Ani Difranco
I went to see a doctor, today, a routine 2-year physical. Nothing wrong with me. Afterwards I realized that part of me wanted something to be wrong with me. It would give me some kind of reason, a reason why I seem to be less than I thought I was.
(Probably I'm more, in other directions.)
Instead, I told him about little things I had noticed, but he said they were all nothing to worry about. Blood pressure is a bit high, though -- nothing to worry about, but come back in a month and we'll check it again. I got the strange impression he was there to take care of my car or washing machine, not to take care of me. A repairman for my body, not a healer. Friends do more for my health, it seems.
I sat in the garden on the roof of the Rideau Centre. I saw a female sunbathing. I looked at her, and it was beautiful. No particular sexual attraction -- I wouldn't have talked to her -- I just thought it was nice to look at.
I've started reading The Illuminatus Trilogy again, now that I've found a bookstore that sells Robert Anton Wilson. I recommend it for anyone who wants their reality challenged.
I finally decided that staying within Meijer might be the best idea, but in a different department, in a different store. Namely, the store down the street. From what I've heard, the attitude there is much more lax than at mine. It might have something to do with all of the employees from my Meijer abandoning ship over to that one.
Unfortunately, this means that I'll have to go through formal protocols to get this done. That means at least two more weeks of hell before the true end of me working at Meijer #63.
Incidentally, my cousin replied to my E-Mail about my working over there (a tech firm) as an intern. They require a major standing in college first. Bugger it all.
Time to sleep. Work starts early tomorrow. I am now completely convinced that my current managers are completely incompetent or insane. Now, it's a matter of figuring out which.
There exists this strange method of how I integrate myself into a social system. All throughout my life, I seem to be hovering always between the geek crowd, which I usually identify the greatest with, and I really think sci/tech/computers ect. are really cool. That, and the rest of the "normal world", or the non-geeks and/or "in crowd" (Frankly, labels or any kind tend to make me cringe, so I use them now only with the need for description). Maybe this is why the clique lines so often described by people I always seem have trouble distinguishing. I always thought it was my enviroment was unique, but maybe not.
Also, this brings into question of "introvert" vs "extrovert". Something I never liked, or personality tests in general, because they too easily classify people not in too broad of catagories, but operate under the assumption of static condition/response rules. I am an introvert? I'd say yes. Am I an extrovert? I'd say yes too. The reason I never liked them is, from trying to observe my past behaviors, I will change my fundamental personality traits (based on the usual classifications used) on anywhere from an hourly to several year basis.
Then again, can I even accurately judge my own behavior? However, are not I the only one who really knows for sure what I'm thinking? Or maybe... ... ... I'm just going crazy? The wacky shit you think of in the shower while waiting for your underwear to dry. I'm tired though.. so, g'night
a new motto: "I can't think, but I'm drinking coffee."
pissy, obligatory tasks I need to do: health insurance, laundry, the cleaners, 5 gifts (2 birthdays, father's day (2), anniversary), moving, doctor's appt. Friday. And the eyeworks place: "We've had your replacement lens since November. Would you call us or come in to pick it up? You're not seeing as well as you could." So, yeah, I've procrastinated for 7 months, but they don't have an answering machine and don't open until 11. Pfft.
what I want to do: Learn how to use my Canon better and take more photographs (esp. with the zoom lens).
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