dirtbag is correct.
While it may seem like the only feasible option for people looking to stop taking this shit, quitting paroxetine cold-turkey is a very, very bad idea. ESPECIALLY if you're autistic. Like listening to Yoko Ono, quitting paroxetine cold-turkey can be an express ticket to the asylum. It was for me; my folks dragged me to the Binghamton General Hospital "Emergency Mental Health" unit.
I was having an awful time in school, due to the withdrawal, and I got kicked out after being there only ten minutes. And my girlfriend dumped me the week before on the third day of withdrawal. Damn kids. Anyway, at the psych center, a little social worker came in, and he asked me the standard questions, "What's your name", "Where do you live", "When did you come here", the standard are-you-a-paranoid-schizophrenic shtick. So I spill my guts, everything that's bothering me for the last six-months. (No, my grilf breaking up with me because she "can't handle long-term relationships" has nothing to do with it.) He leaves afterwards, and orders me a lunch tray. I sat in a tiny, sterile room with sterile fluorescent lights, and a sterile desk and sterile chairs with magazines that weren't even interesting. The room was enough to drive anyone mad. I sat there alone under the 60 Hz lights for two hours. By the end, I was stimming like mad. My skin was crawling; I was curling into a ball. My mind was racing. I mutliated a styrofoam cup with a comb. I was ready to just walk out the door when the psychiatrist walked in. She was an "autism expert" of sorts, with a woman in training to become an expert in autism. Keeping in mind, I was talking about what was bothering me for an hour, because that was how long it took to say it once. So that bitch looks at me, and asks: "What's the matter? I heard you had a breakup or something."
I WAS PISSED.
I will never go there again.
In the past two weeks, after that incident, shit happened. I got all the withdrawal goodness:
It sucked.
The big problem here is that paroxetine withdrawal is caused by a disruption in the production of acetylcholine due to the discontinuation of the drug. When you stop paroxetine (especially cold-turkey), your acetylcholine levels dive. This is bad in itself; however, people with autism have much lower acetylcholine levels to begin with. I can't remember the sources, but it makes complete sense. When I stopped taking paroxetine, I all the sudden felt much, much more "autistic". Like you suddenly turned into some "Low-Functioning Autistic". (A bullshit diagnosis, by the way. It's basically a bullshit name for parents of "higher-level" autistics (read: HFA and Asperger's Syndrome) to make themselves feel better about their children. You know, like "hey, at least my kid's not Rain Man". Fucking eugenicist assholes.) It sucked. It really, really sucked.
HOWEVER, I am finally getting better. In the last few days, I've been feeling GREAT. I'm starting to feel normal in a way I haven't since I was nine years old (before they put me on brain-damage in a pill). How did I get through this? I don't know. Here's some recommendations, though.
I felt much calmer sitting in my bedroom alone, listening to the Beatles. If you're around other people and it gets to you, just lie down in bed and rest. Take vitamins. Especially B vitamins. Eat eggs. They're rich in choline, which will provide your brain with more resources to make acetylcholine, and thus make your withdrawal suck less. If you get too homesick, go for a walk. If you aren't too dizzy, go for a ride in the car. And like I said, The Beatles help. So does Imagine. And above all, just hang in there! It will get better! This won't last forever!
Also visit http://www.quitpaxil.info/. It's a great site for quitting Paxil. Very informative; I learned lots there.
Good luck and Godspeed, brother.
December 5, 2007:
I'm still cooked in the head. I've recovered most of my intellect, but I've definitely been warped by my experience quitting Paxil cold turkey. If I wasn't bipolar when I started, I am now. I do not recommend quitting Paxil cold turkey to anyone. It doesn't matter what situation you're in. Wean down slowly.
It should be obvious why I was dragged to the psych ward after reading the above. I was completely psychotic. My head did not settle down until the August after this post, when the mushroom cloud cleared. And that was, unbeknownst by me, the beginning of a very long and very strange trip.