i want you to see the silence
that penetrates lost eyes
spill vacancy to loose earth
i always meant to.. 

spare the little ones that couldn't hold on

pushed loneliness into cold when
you left me alone in the white
parted lip gasp, whispered longing
i did not find your hands
                  
               morning moons i forgot to
             take in pale blue light 
            you looked at me with 
          intent stare slicing hidden 
         secret life lie candle box 

old thought, my only vice now
as i hold fast, still tremble 
quietly, though, beneath new leaf