I don't know what she was thinking when she was making the bed so carefully. White sheets on a dark blue. Absence of innocence. Loss of strength and dignity. Or it could be childhood. She was possibly looking for something. Waiting for sleep.
She sat on the stairs, wrote her words on the wall...

I should lay here, I should be still
I talk too softly
I should lay here, I should be still
If I hadn't been so silent
You could've possibly joined in...

Making the bed and she was waiting for 8. Making the bed when she only wanted it to be in lumps of blankets, pillows, and sheets. She only wanted that safety. I don't know why she did what she did. Made a mess of things. She left it all alone when she was done. She sat on the stairs and wrote...

She's lost the appetite for love, she will no longer feed. I don't know why she treats herself this way. She's so ignorant sometimes. She's got no room to cry, not saying she does. She's got no more tears anyhow. I'd swear her eyes were dry. I don't know why she says the things she does. Or acts the way she does. Sometimes she'll break free and try to fit things in the places they belong. I don't know what she thinks of me. Or why she feels the needs for some sort of boundary between humans, just so she can speak. She makes the bed so sweetly, while repeating motions and words. I don't know why she does these things. Maybe it's only because it is routine. I don't understand anything.

You can't be alone cause you're nothing when you are

You can't handle the reality of everything

No matter who you're with, I want you to know

I'll still see you lonely and alone...

In*def"i*nite (?), a. [L. indefinitus. See In- not, and Definite.]

1.

Not definite; not limited, defined, or specified; not explicit; not determined or fixed upon; not precise; uncertain; vague; confused; obscure; as, an indefinite time, plan, etc.

It were to be wished that . . . men would leave off that indefinite way of vouching, "the chymists say this," or "the chymists affirm that." Boyle.

The time of this last is left indefinite. Dryden.

2.

Having no determined or certain limits; large and unmeasured, though not infinite; unlimited; as indefinite space; the indefinite extension of a straight line.

Though it is not infinite, it may be indefinite; though it is not boundless in itself, it may be so to human comprehension. Spectator.

3.

Boundless; infinite.

Indefinite and omnipresent God, Inhabiting eternity. W. Thompson (1745).

4. Bot.

Too numerous or variable to make a particular enumeration important; -- said of the parts of a flower, and the like. Also, indeterminate.

Indefinite article Gram., the word a or an, used with nouns to denote any one of a common or general class. -- Indefinite inflorescence. Bot. See Indeterminate inflorescence, under Indeterminate. -- Indefinite proposition Logic, a statement whose subject is a common term, with nothing to indicate distribution or nondistribution; as, Man is mortal. -- Indefinite term Logic, a negative term; as, the not-good.

Syn. -- Inexplicit; vague; uncertain; unsettled; indeterminate; loose; equivocal; inexact; approximate.

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