Whether it was better to exist or not to exist,
whether it was better to be part of a larger group
or to be on one's own,
whether it was better to rebel against you
than to be part of you and
now I know,
now I know that to be part of you is to live
and to live is to exist
and to exist is to be part of a larger group
and to rebel against you is to destroy myself
and to destroy myself is to destroy you,
and for that reason