On really cold nights I think of her.   It was 17 last night. 

What I remember is that she was a high strung girl, who liked being comfortable.  She usually wore an old pair of jeans with holes in the knees.  She only had two or three pair and I don't think any of them were hole-free.  Balled up in the corner of our bedroom or thrown in the backseat of her car.    There were times she dressed up for work or for weddings, but it didn't suit her and she ditched what she called her "Grown up"  clothes as fast as she could.   A tshirt and the jeans were what she wore most of the time.

The exception was winter, of course and when it was really cold- say below  20, she would thrown on an old hoodie that I think was her brothers.  Maybe an old boyfriend's?

I didn't ask and she didn't offer.  It was grey and at least one size bigger than…

High muck-a-muck (also high muckymuck and even high mucketymuck) is a North American English slang term adapted from the Chinook Jargon (or Tsinuk Wawa) pidgin used as a lingua franca among the Native American tribes and those of European ancestry along the Pacific coast from Oregon as far north as southern Alaska in the 19th and early 20th centuries. (There doesn't seem to be a connection to the older English word muck.)

In English, it means an important, high-r…

I have intentions 

I admit it 

I plan to surround you with soft piano music

some lavender and then perhaps

a glass of wine

When you move toward relaxed,

stretched out on the couch,

as a cat in a windowsill

I will whisper in your ear: