GMT says otherwise but I am where I am and it's March.

 

Emotional purge of a month. So much dug out. Thanks for being there for me E2, it's taken 16 years but I do feel like I can rely on you.

 

March does feel like more of an ending than December, and April does feel more like a beginning than January. Call me a fool call me what you will but I think the Chinese are right about this one. A toast to the new year. Or new something.

 

First shower in 3 days felt like a damn baptism. Disillusioning bittersweet disappointment for me, but a cause for celebration for everyone around me. But then I felt remarkably better. Like I didn't know how much I needed to feel clean until I did feel clean. Is this why all those marks choose religion? Or just one of the fringe benefits? Freedom of mind by way of illusion. I can see the appeal.

 

I don't know what I'm going to do but it doesn't matter. Enough getting caught up in the past

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possible, bliss

 

 

 

possible confusion
on thin cotton

the day begins
when I awake
the universe begins
when I roll my head, I will never
wonder who is there, never
wonder who has been in my veins
inside my time, I know them
without seeing knowing naming pointing
it isn't necessary,
the world belongs to me and me alone

 

it is quiet like a goodbye
quieter than atonement

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As a resolutely brown-eyed person, I have no proverbial dog in this proverbial hunt, but I feel inclined to opine anyway: popular myth to the contrary, blue-eyed people do indeed have souls.

The idea that blue-eyed people lack souls dates back to medieval Europe, where eye color carried mystical significance. Blue eyes, being rarer in many regions, were sometimes seen as otherworldly, either divine or demonic, depending on the context. By the…