i'm trying to get over a serious case of
noder's block that seems to be
symptomatic of the general lack of
creative expression in the rest of my life.
i can't find anything to write about. i pick up my guitar and i can only think to play emotionless versions of simple songs.
maybe it's the stress. i moved fairly recently, and the job is starting to get more intense. my musical co-conspirator pissed me off the other day when he told me he sent a realy bad bootleg tape of one of the band's jam sessions to a label, and even more so when he told me one of the songs was his solo version of one i wrote. we managed to work things out, but i'm still somewhat angry.
maybe it's the bed. i haven't slept right since we moved. my girlfriend and i were sharing a twin bed which is sometimes hard enough for one person to do. now we have a queen-size, and neither of us can sleep.
whatever it is, it's driving me mad.
every time i think of something to node, it's either filled in by someone who's already a much better writer, or my mind just goes blank. it's been the same way with any outlet.
it won't be this weekend i get to relax, though.
i just hope it goes away...