Ah, May 15th.
Had an interesting cell phone conversation whilst sitting in the local coffee bar last night with a friend. She was intent on telling me that my on going opiate addiction is driving people away, and wanted to make sure I knew that was why she kept breaking plans.
I tried explaining that I was very aware of what I was doing, and had specific reasons for doing so. I'm leaving this place soon, in three weeks, leaving a good job, a decent circle of friends, and a great house. For what? To be true to my dreams, and this sunny hell I've been roasting
in is not my dream...only a peaceful interlude.
SvaHa
A quote (of myself, how vain) "There can be no
light w/o
shadow" She responded that living in the light is better.
I agree, but sometimes it hurts my eyes so damn much.
How does one that has tread the darker paths in life relate
to a ray of sunshine without smothering brillance? I don't have that answer. I'm not sure if I want it.