I had a terrible dream about M. last night. I dreamt that my daughter and oldest son were graduating high school together, in ONE hour and I had invited NO ONE at all to come.
It had completely slipped my mind. I realized that M. would probably like to see them graduate, and then realized it was way too late to call anyone, it would take half an hour just to get to the campus!
Furthermore, if I did call M., he would be mad that I had waited so long to call. He would think I only called as a last resort, second hand friend, some one else cancelled, or something like that. I felt really terrible and guilty and idiot like. Furthermore, although the anxiety was centered around M., I hadn't invited her father, my mother, her brother, no one. It was a chaotic, upsetting dream.