today sucks and i don't quite know why. today i hate most
everything and
everyone. i slept through my
alarm. got to work at 11.
coffee.
coffee.
coffee.
the man comes back
tomorrow morning. i am
nervous and
anxious.
more later...
i can't get the
nervous feeling to go away. it's just a constant feeling of
doom. not just
gloom, i mean
DOOM. like something
catastrophic is about to happen.
i keep looking in
mirrors. looking for something
wrong. i can't find anything about my being that anyone would find
repugnant.
i came close to finishing a self-portrait last night.
updated my homenode pic.